5th October.

Months change. Seasons change, Moods change. Love grows. Love dies. 

Its always a pain in the heart at first. Your life is turned upside down and for just that split second you feel helpless and hopeless. Its like your heart disappears and you notice! You notice its not there anymore and you have almost like... well like a mini panic attack. Or a massive one. 

Love, its four letters, put together, rolled off the tongue to explain a feeling that can vary from person to person. A feeling that hurts, that feels amazing, that feels confusing.

But sometimes that love dies. And that's okay. 

A new beginning is sometimes hard to make. When you are stuck in a rut and your used to things sometimes its difficult to stand up and make a change. When your world gets turned upside down, a door gets closed and its giving you the opportunity to open a new one. Make a new start.

A new door is there for me to open and with a gulp i will step through the door, leaving old love behind. Maybe its time for a new kind of love. Maybe its time for self love. 

October is my new beginning and with it having my favorite day of the year at the end of it, Samhain, i want to make the most of the month to make it perfect for my new year. For my new beginning, for my new life. Maybe it felt inconvenient that the love was torn apart but all the signs point to the fact a new door was just waiting for me, A new chapter.